I've learned that the military puts strain on relationships and that sometimes it takes more than it gives. I think it's easier to blame the military for our lost friendship than it is to believe that we chose this. There are days that I wish we could swallow our pride and accept the apologies we'll never give each other. There are times that I wish I could call you and hear that familiar voice. Days that I would love to smother your baby in cuddles and hear about how being a mom is going. It's hard to believe that we're both mothers, and even harder to believe our kids will never be friends.
You're going to judge. They're going to judge. It's human nature. You'll find yourself questioning everything. Does she like me? Are our personalities connecting? Do we have the same taste in food? Is it weird to ask for her number? Do I wait a couple days to text her? Even though you're not really dating, it's going to feel awkward. Especially if you're out of practice and you'll quickly remember what it's like to put yourself out there.